Hondo I. Sackett
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As Hondo walked into Gadget's room valentine turned away from him. This action he did not miss. He stopped for a minute and looked her over from a few steps away before speaking. "How's she doin'?" He asked Valentine shrugged and kept looking away, "she's restin'." Hondo sighed, "She asleep?" Valentine nodded. "Jefe thinks she has cancer." He said in a low voice. "Cancer?" Valentine asked in a quiet but surprised tone. She turned towards him as she spoke, the surprise of what he said caused her to momentarily forget the tears on her face that she had been trying to hide. He looked at her a moment and tilted hi head a bit as he looked at her. She remembered her tear stained face after a couple of seconds and once again turned away, even though she knew it was too late. After a moment he spoke again. "Yeah... stress from the abuse an' drugs. I reckon her body couldn't take it. She'll be weak as a kitten for at least a week, I reckon, but Jefe will get her well again. Jefe asked that we keep it to ourselves though. Don't even tell her you know." He replied Valentine nodded, "I'll keep it to myself for now. Does she know?" "I don't think so. Might be better that she never knows. Might be a kinder thing than tellin' her an' puttin' more fear an' hate into her heart. She's seen too much already. It's amazin' that she's kept as much of her innocent nature as she has. I think in part it was for her to hide behind. She hasn't had the chance to grow as a person in a long time. We're all goin' to change that... together." He said She nodded, but still looked away from him. He sighed after a moment and stepped up to where she sat. "I've got a patch an' some meds to put on your eye so, you're gonna hafta look at me." He said softly, as he stood before her. As she turned to him he could see her eyes were red, even in the dim light. Tear stained trails betrayed her face, and added to the abused wife look that her bruised and swollen cheek and eye had lent to her already. Her eyes begged him for something, but what he was not sure. Was it to ask why she had been crying, was it for him to not ask, or was it for something else? Something that he'd give if he could, but could not? Though his sixth sense instincts had served him well, he often found they failed him where women were concerned. As Hondo stood there he pulled out the pills and crushed them as Fernando had instructed. "I need to rub this over the swollen area an' put this pad over it. Jefe said you should be almost good as new by mornin'." he said. "If it could only fix what's really wrong with me..." she replied in a low whisper that would almost be unheard by those with lesser hearing. Hondo sighed, "So, you gonna tell me an' save me pryin' it outta ya?" She sighed and tried to look down, but he lifted her chin to keep her face up to apply the medicine. Looking directly at him did not make her shame easier to tell, but she tried. "I ... I'm a fool. I'm so ... so insecure with myself that ... that I'm just gonna drive everyone away.... I'm useless." She said trying to hold back more tears. "You're not useless, or a fool. Insecure right now? ... yeah." He replied "You don't understand. I ... I asked Fernando if .. if he liked me." she said even softer. "What?" Hondo asked "As a friend, I mean! I told him as a friend ... I .. I just .. just .." she stopped, not sure how to explain any of what was going on in her head. "I tried to warn ya that was a bad line of questionin'. Knowin' Jefe that went over like a shit sandwich." Hondo replied in his usual, blunt way. "IT .. it did. he .. he told me I should never ask that and... and that he'd not say. HE said we say it in actions, never verbally. I ... I'm a fool and I'm ..I'm destroyin' the trust and friendships I've built and I ... I ... I can't stop! I can't help it!" She said a little louder than she should have but not quite at normal conversation volume. "Shh, now. Settle down. Don't want to wake your charge." Hondo replied with a bit of sternness in his voice. He sighed and softened his tone after a moment "Darlin', ... we all #$@! up, an' we all know you're havin' a rough time with what happened. Hell, its barely been 48 hours since. No one expects ya to be yourself again in two days. You need to understand, though that questionin' a friendship like that can seem as a lack of trust in a person. Some folks don't think 'bout it things that way, but some of us do. Jefe has done a lot for us both, as we have for him an' Tammy. Tammy has forgotten, but Jefe won't forget what his friends do for him nor what his enemies do against him or his friends an' family. To ask would be like slappin' him in the face an' sayin' after all we've done together, you don't trust him." Hondo replied as he finished taping the pad into place on her face. "But .. but, it's not like that at all! I .. I'm worried that you and him don't trust me now, or never did and I've just been delusional about all of this..." She started to say in a fast manner as she tried to explain her thoughts. Hondo cut her off abruptly, but tried not to sound too stern. "That's horse shit, an' you know it." He replied "But ... but... then what is it?" She asked, on the verge of tears again. "You don't trust yourself." He said plainly. "What?" She said, looking somewhat shocked as if his words surprised her. "You are hurt, an' feelin' vulnerable. You don't trust your abilities so instead of findin' that trust in who you are an' what you can do, you are lookin' to us to validate your abilities an' such for you. I told ya to trust our trust in you, but I didn't mean to question our trust in you. You might not have meant it that way, but to Jefe you questioned his trust an' faith in you, not just as fellow rescuer, but as a friend... as family. Jefe might say we aren't family an' its for our protection, but you damn well know we all are family. We've been through too much to not be family. If you have to ask for validation on if someone likes you, your not family, as family doesn't ask. In family, actions do the talkin'. If you can't trust the actions, then the words are less than meanin'less." Hondo said It took Valentine a moment to process, but she realized he was right. She realized, even her tears had been for herself. She had not thought about hurting Fernando, like that. She had only focused on her and she had truly let her inner demons lash out and hurt a close friend. Her self pity turned to true shame. The tears, for the moment, were gone. Instead, now she felt like she had been gut-punched. "I ... I am a fool." She said quietly "Val .." Hondo started to argue but she cut him off. "No, ... I am. I know I'm messed up. I know its in my head and though I can't seem to fight it all right now, I let it blind me. Instead of questionin' who cared I should have been asking those I know care for help. ..." She said somberly "Val, I think you're makin' a mountain out of a molehill. Jefe knows you're messed up right now. He's just not gonna pander to that." Hondo said "No, I ... I owe Fernando an apology ... as I do to you too." She replied Her uncovered eye shimmered in the low light as she looked on the one she loved. She knew she owed him so much more than she could ever give, yet he asked for nothing but her love and trust. She wished she could give him more, but at the moment, all she had to offer was herself, and her mind would not allow her to do any justice to their physical relationship in this state. "You don't owe me anythin'. The only thing I want is for you to get better. I miss my wife." He said softly, giving her a soft, reassuring smile. "I'll try to get her back for you, but ... I should apologize to Fernando." She replied "I probably couldn't stop ya if I wanted to, but It might be best to leave him alone. He's not a fan of apologies unless someone intentionally #$@!ed up an' even then he prefers actions." Hondo replied. "I'll think about it, but ... you men might be able to speak in deeds alone, but us women sometimes need to include some talk so we know we are understood." She replied Hondo nodded, "Do what ya need to. I've never stopped you from doin' that." AS he started to walk to the door she called out softly. "Hondo?" she said "Yes, darlin'?" he asked "I love you... very much." She said He smiled slightly and nodded, "I know. Now, I gotta work on supper. I'll bring ya some up when its ready." "Should we get some food for Gadget too?" She asked He shrugged, "Don't know when she last ate, or if she can. I'll ask Jefe. He was settlin' down on the couch I think." Valentine just nodded in rely, letting her husband leave and attend to supper. She wondered for a moment how she had been blessed with a man who loved her so, while Gadget had gotten a man who had used her so cruelly. after a bit her thoughts turned to how she had been acting the last couple days. She wasn't sure how to fix herself, other than turning to the Almighty for help, something that she realized she had failed to do, until now. Hondo stopped in the living-room and asked Fernando quick like about Gadget. He told him that she could wait until after they had all eaten as she had some soup around 4, and should be left to sleep a bit longer before being woken for more soup. Hondo merely nodded a reply and headed down to the kitchen where Monty and Dale were waiting. "There ya are, Skippah. Thought we'd lost ya fer a moment there!" Monty said. "You put all the burger into the fridge in the basement?" Hondo asked "Yeah, mate. I could get it, but the fridge is locked." Monty said Hondo tossed Monty his key, "I want that back when you're done, an' remember, no snacks." Monty caught the keys and waved him off, "Yeah, yeah, I remember, skippah. Keep ya knickers on." As Monty left Hondo threw a bag of onions at Dale. He clumsily caught them. "You know how to cut onions, I hope." Hondo said "I'm not stupid!" Dale say defensively. Charles came out of his room and shucked his suit jacket, "I'll help you, Dale." "Does everyone think I'm stupid?" He ask in a half annoyed whine. "I reckon." Hondo said "Hey, he's my trainee. Be nice." Charles said in Dale's defense. "Nice? No one's been mean yet. If he's this much of a whinin' welp after that he'll be useless as an agent." Hondo said flatly. Dale slammed the onions on the counter, "Why does everyone think so little of me?! I want to know!" Hondo turned with a snarl, "Why? Because you followed that miserable excuse for a 'munk 'round for so long!" "Chip, but he's not ..." Dale started to say but was cut short. "If you say he's not so bad I'll rip your damn arm off an' beat ya to death with it." Hondo said flatly, as he stared at the red-nosed chipmunk. Dale swallowed hard, as there was death in the cowboy's eyes, but he was worried about looking bad in front of his new boss so he spoke up again, hesitantly. "You're just a murdering bully. I kn... kn... know what you did that day. You ... you don't scare m ...m .. me." He said with a conviction that wouldn't have swayed an infant to believe him. "You mean the day Gadget left me?" Hondo asked coldly. "The day we kicked you out of the rangers, yes. Chip told me all about it!" Dale said with more confidence. "Did he tell you he hired those outlaws to kill me an' had I not killed them both Gadget an' I would be dead?" Hondo asked coldly. "He ...No! ... He said ... That's... that's not true!" Dale said hesitantly, but defensively. Hondo shook his head and muttered, "Worthless idiot." "No reason to be so harsh on him. He just didn't know." Charles said in Dales defense. "I'm not worthless! And he's right, I didn't know!" Dale yelled "Like ya didn't know he was forcin' his wife to take drugs?" He said "I..! What? He.. . Chip ... he forced Gadget to take drugs?? I.. it... it can't be true." Dale asked in a confused tone, having missed the earlier conversation. "It is true, an' you had you nose in his ass all the #$@!in' time. Am I suppose ta believe you didn't know?" Hondo snapped "I .. I didn't know! Honestly!" He said "Like ya didn't know he was beatin' her?" Hondo snarled "No!" Dale replied "Mentally abusin' her!" HE growled "No!!" Dale exclaimed "An' lettin' his buddies gang rape her to the point where she tried to kill herself?" Hondo almost roared "I didn't know!!!" Dale almost yelled "Then what kinda spy are you? Monty pisses me off that he didn't know, but he wasn't up that maniacal munks ass, like you were. If you don't know you don't have what it takes to be a spy, an' if you do make a good spy one has to ask, did you not know, or did you just not care. IF you don't care you're no friend to that poor, broken woman upstairs. You're as bad as the monster who broke her." he replied in a snarling growl so cold it sent waves of ice through the veins of everyone in the room. Dale could only hang his head in shame. Charles shook his head, "You can be cruel, Sackett." "Life's cruel, an' he's been hidin' from that reality for too long. If he can't accept it, you're better cuttin' your losses now." Hondo said coldly. Charles sighed and walked over to Dale, "I'll help you with the onions... and other things as well." Dale just nodded and went to finding some cutting boards and knives. "I heard you had someone claimin' to be Zipper in custody." Hondo said to Charles after a moment. "Yes, have you told Monty yet?" Charles asked "Nope, an' don't want anyone too. I want Monty an' I to interview him after supper." Hondo said. "We can arrange that. My man Bourbon is watching him in his room." Charles said. "I'd lock him in the workshop for now. He can't escape as there are no windows an' no tools until tomorrow. I'll try to get some black iron to make some cages for secure storage." Hondo said. "Storage of what?" Charles asked "Valuable assets ... objects or otherwise." Hondo said Charles nodded knowingly, "Not a bad idea, honestly." Charles turned to one of the rooms, "Bourbon!" One of Charle's men came out. He wore a ten-gallon stetson and spoke with an over-accented Texas drawl. "What ya need, Cap'n?" Bourbon asked Charles tossed him a key, "That's for the attic. IT will be a workshop for us to work on our guns and such later. For now it will work as a holding cell for our, soon to be, new group member." Bourbon nodded, "No problem, Cap'n." Bourbon turned to his room and ushered Zipper, "Follow me, hombre. We got a new hoosegow for ya until the chiefs come have a pow-wow with ya." Hondo shook his head as they left, muttering under his breath, as he worked, something about Bourbon being a poster boy for why stereo-types exist, but no one caught what he was saying fully. He had started to wonder where Monty had gotten to when he suddenly reappeared. "Get lost?" Hondo asked dryly. "Oy, mate! I looked through all the fridges, jest ta find thet it accidentally got put in the freezah." Monty said. "Better not be any cheese on your breath, Jack." Hondo said "On me 'onor. skippah, I didn't eat morsel!" Monty said, crossing his heart with one hand and holding up two finger's in a scout salute with the other. "I hope not, an' If ya did an' ya lied to me, we'll have trouble." Hondo said flatly. "I swear, Skippah, no snack." He said then paused before speaking again, "eh.... Did I 'ear yellin' up 'ere?" "Nothin' to worry about. Now, we need to get cookin'" Hondo said, changing the subject. "What we cookin'?" Monty asked "Swedish meatballs in gravy, mash taters, green beans fried with onions an' a little bacon for flavor, an' apples fried in butter an' cinnamon. You know how to make meatballs?" Hondo asked "Do I? I'm a bit of a hobby chef, myself. Ya tell me how ya want them done an' I'll get to it!" Monty replied. Hondo told him how he normally did it, and Monty got to work. Charles and Dale cut and chopped, while Hondo and Monty ran the stove. Once Charles and Dale were done they went to set out plates, cups, and silverware. After a bit Bourbon returned. He stopped in the kitchen and looked Hondo up and down. Hondo turned to him and squinted questioningly. "Need somethin'?" Hondo asked “I Heard you a cowboy.” Bourbon said “I reckon. Why do ya ask?” Hondo asked “Well, I am a cowboy from Texas and joined the Statesmen. We are Spy’s and Cowboys.” Bourbon dawled “I see. Are all of ya code-named after an alcohol?” Hondo asked. “Yeah. Our front is a company that makes whiskey and Beer.” Bourbon replied in his overly deep drawl. He stood there for a moment longer in awkward silence before nodding and heading back to his room. Hondo shook his head, and got back to work. It didn't take him and Monty much more time to finish up the cooking. He just hoped the other ladies would be back before everything got cold.
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